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Wednesday, 28 October 2009

  • Blankets

    This morning in the dark wee hours I awakened with a start. My thoughts flew back in time on the wings of memory . . . or more like the wings of sensation.

    I was a kid again waking up under a half-dozen thick blankets in the small room I shared with my older sister, with a warm body snuggled next to mine--that of the family cat. A sound had awakened me, but not really a sound, something about an absence of sound--as if the house was muffled. And I knew immediately, deep in my bones, that it had snowed.

    I lay there in bed last night, sensations and emotions all tangled up in my 52-year-old body. I felt a child again, but knew that was impossible as I was comfy-cozy next to my husband of twenty-five years. Listening to his gentle snores I drifted back to sleep.

    When hubby’s alarm clock went off he got up and drew back the curtains from the window. “Bethie, look,” he exclaimed, “it snowed!” Hush, my sweet, hush. My world is sleeping, wrapped in a blanket.

Thursday, 10 September 2009

  • Patience, Beth, Patience

    All I wanted to do this morning was laundry and baking. Things I’ve done hundreds of times over the years, should have been simple enough, straight forward, easy . . . I wanted to get those chores out of the way so that I could get over to the new house to clean and paint.

    I got the first two loads of laundry hanging up on the clothesline and was starting the third through the washing machine when I heard raindrops splattering on the outside deck. Dang! Out I went to get clothes off the line and into the dryer.

    Next it was into the kitchen to bake. Partway through the pumpkin/cranberry bread recipe I remembered there was no vegetable oil. No problem, I knew I could substitute with melted coconut oil. Woops no coconut oil! So I improvised with half melted butter and half home-canned applesauce. Then I realized I had no cranberries so decided to substitute fresh raspberries. I put them in a strainer and washed them and without thinking set the strainer on the counter. A few minutes later I noticed red juice underneath the mixing cups, behind the sink faucets, and dripping down the cupboards. Dang! Time out to wipe it up, only to discover it had stained. Dang! More time taken to bleach the counters. Back to the mixing. I added the raspberries, and poured the batter into three small loaf pans instead of the two large pans called for. I popped them into the oven. And now I wait to taste test.

    And I wait on the clothes to come out of the dryer. And I feel impatient.

    Life is like that sometimes. We have plans but they get disrupted, interrupted, set aside. We end up waiting when we want to get on with the schedule. I’ve felt that way since December when Paul lost his job. Kind of like being stuck on the pause button. Arghh!

Wednesday, 02 September 2009

  • We "Have" a "House"

    We have a “house!” It’s a 900 square foot, doublewide mobile home, of the 70’s era. (Think brown faux-wood paneled walls and orange carpet.) It has a kitchen and dining room, a living room with fireplace, two bathrooms, and three bedrooms—all small with one dingy window in each room. The yard is huge and ugly with a few trees and a lot of weeds. Scattered across the property and in front of the entrance door are forklifts, Kim-Ray oil-field valves (the size of a dining room chair), bolts of wire and metal tubing, old tires, pallets of wood, etc.

    The house has been vacant for a year and is owned by the company Paul works for. It sits on the adjoining lot (talk about a short commute). And here’s the most amazing and best part of all . . . except for our own sweat equity, it comes with no rent attached. NO RENT! The owners of Paul’s company want to use the home for people in the community who need a place to live until they get back on their feet. We have the privilege of being the first tenants and we get the fun of fixing it up. It needs a lot of that, but we’re not afraid of disposing of spider nests, getting paint under our fingernails, or fixing crooked cupboard doors.

    Our plan is to live there until we have saved enough money for a downpayment and can buy our own house. We are excited and ready to get to work!

Tuesday, 11 August 2009

  • Small Treasure

    On Saturday Paul and I made a delivery of lawn mower engines to Carrizo Christian Academy at Immanuel Mission--a 2 1/2 hour trip out on to the Navajo Indian Reservation. I grew up at Immanuel Mission and Paul and I spent the first five years of our marriage there. My brother Greg teaches mechanics at the school--the lawn mower engines were for his students. He is also a pastor of the community church there, and his wife Kathy is a school counselor.

    Greg and Kathy live out in the boonies--a couple of miles off the Mission property in a small mobile home at the camp of the Blackwater family. Once Paul and I arrived, they piled us into their four-wheel-drive jeep for a lovely evening picnic overlooking a maze of canyons at the base of the Carrizo Mountains. We worked up good appetites as we drove up the narrow valley, between red mesas and towering pinnacles, bumping along the “road,” our hair blowing in the wind, dust coating our faces.

    Just above the small home of David Jordan, a WWII survivor and Navajo code-talker, Greg parked the jeep in a rocky ravine. Earlier that day on his morning run he had passed through a gully and had noticed a small clay pot sitting in the dirt on the rise. He hadn’t had time then to check it out, so now we were getting the privilege of discovery with him!

    We scrambled out of the jeep and up the hill behind him, around juniper trees, dodging saltbush and prickly-pear cacti, stumbling over pieces of petrified wood (I brought a nice piece home for a paper-weight). Greg stopped for the rest of us to catch up and catch our breath, “Can anyone see it?” he asked. My eyes scanned across the rusty-red hills, “There!” I said, pointing at the slight color discrepancy on the hillside. As we approached the spot we found that the pot sat in crusted rivulets, having been uncovered in a recent rain, and it wasn’t a pot at all, but a mug. Greg, having studied archeology at Northern Arizona University, was able to place the mug as being of the late Mesa Verde period--black geometric designs on white. And near the mug we found the exposed bones of the body.

    We kept a wide perimeter of the site as Paul set up his tripod and photographed the archeological treasure. When he was done Greg leaned down and for the first time in over 700 years touched the mug. He lifted it from the arid desert soil and gently cleaned out the caked dirt from the inner bowl. Then he handed it to me. I held the mug in my palm, wondering whose skillful hands had made it and who had given it up as an offering for the afterlife on the death of a loved one. It was a sacred moment for me as in a tangible way I was touching the life of the person who had created the mug, as well as the person who had died.

    I stood quietly by the grave as Greg set the mug in a new place, on a flat spot between a bush and a rock, still close to the body--in a place of honor as the offering that it was intended--but where it would be protected from rolling down the hill and breaking into shards. He covered the mug with dirt, and it was gone. As we turned to leave a slight breeze swirled across the exposed gravesite and white wisps of bone literally turned into dust.

Wednesday, 15 July 2009

  • Dear Deer

    The last few days I've felt a bit like I'm on vacation, hiding out in paradise. Only thing is Paul still has to work, but for most of the next three weeks he and I are house-sitting for friends who live in Cedar Hills, on the banks of the Animas River, about 25 minutes north of my sister’s home.

    The house sits on 3 1/2 acres of green hill, the river flowing full and fast at the base. There is fruit on the fruit trees, grapes on the vine, a vegetable garden, and lots of wildlife to enjoy; doves on the telephone line, woodpeckers in the apple trees, ducks in the shallows down at the river, cute little rabbits trying to get under the garden fence (umm, maybe not so cute, actually), and dozens of hummingbirds flittering and sipping from the feeders at the kitchen window. And deer.

    When we arrived we found a note on the kitchen table informing us, among other important property management tidbits, that a doe had been spotted with twin fawns. At lunch yesterday I saw the three of them; Mama with every muscle tense and protective of the two beautiful babies standing at her side.

    In the afternoon she tucked the babies out of sight among the tall grasses to sleep the afternoon heat away. She spent a good part of those hours in the yard eating tender green crab apples that had fallen from a tree. Inside the house I passed by the window and noticed her on the other side--just a few feet from me. She initially startled, gave me a long, hard stare, and then went back to munching. She must have realized that she's relatively safe with a pane of glass between us. Later when I passed by the window I saw that she was still there, but upon closer inspection I realized that it was actually a young buck that had taken her place, his antlers small knobby nubs between his big ears. He, too, seemed to realize that the window between us kept him safe.

    In late afternoon I saw them again; the buck on the lawn by the driveway, the doe on the opposite side of the house in the grass by the picnic table. A slight movement caught my eye and I spotted the twins popping up over the rise and out of the bushes by the drainage ditch. They stood there quivering and frightened--all luscious caramel and marshmallow spots--looking toward the doe. Waiting . . . waiting . . . for Mama's okay. She raised her head. Instantly both babies bolted forward across the yard to meet her, misjudging their speed and barreling right into her, bringing her front legs to her knees. For a moment there was a wild confusion of legs and heads as the doe fought to regain her balance and the twins fought each other for the best suckling position. And I, safe behind the pane of window glass, laughed.

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  • I am the fifth of sixth children and grew up on the Navajo Indian Reservation in northeastern Arizona. I have been happily married to my first husband for almost 25 years and we have two grown sons. I believe life is all about relationship--relationship with God, with family, and with others.

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